assalamualaikum
ive been a major heart trouble for someone these past days .i dont know all of a sudden , ifeel a total empty inside me .not that im saying im no longer have "that" feeling for him ,but i think i need space to be alone with myself for a little while.i am asking for his understanding to let me been drown with my feeling . i want to hide this from him,knowing that he will be worry sick but i cant lie to my feeling and torture myself just to see others happy with the lie i make dont i ?
but im so suprised to see that he really is keeping up with me .he endures all my "disease" and keep being the usual him.Diplomatic.if there is one thing that i can describe that guy ,is that he is diplomatic and rational .just because im been the fire ,he's been the water to cool me down .Truthly speaking , im scare myself if one day he will get boring and so over this .if he ever give up on me and decides its the best to move on .because i keep putting a wound on him .i keep creating a wound and scars that never fade about him.he's too nice for me .Im afraid that .i might be asking for some space ,but i realise that for now , i cant think to love anyone else other than him . i feel bad about myself.seriously i am .and my heart aches.badly.
To you my dear boy,thank you so much for keeping up with me .im so lucky to have you and i will try my best to keep this relationship grow ..
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